Dear AAPI Educators of Equitas,
There were literally thousands of opportunities where I could’ve spoken up and brought greater focus toward the heartbreaking rise of anti-Asian hate crimes across the county. But so much has happened, is happening, and about to happen that I’ve always found reasons to wait another week.
Other times I feel I couldn’t ask our team, already shouldering the enormous weight of teaching and lifting an entire community, to carry any more emotional weight, especially of another group in deep pain.
Then there’s that annoying little Asian inner critic in me ( I’m not sure if any of you have it, and if you do, yours and mine should meet) that shames me into feeling exceedingly inconsiderate and selfish for even thinking about bothering other people with my personal issues and my feelings.
But then I think about all the Asian kids who may start to doubt their self-worth, and maybe begin to feel that they feel they matter less because they do matter less as they observe adults like me finding reasons to not stand to demand justice and protection for people like them.
I cannot accept that, and I will play no role in perpetuating harm as a result of any display of tolerance on my end for injustice or hateful sentiments against AAPI.
But that doesn’t mean I know right now what I could, and should, do. I’m sad, confused, and bewildered just thinking about how people could carry this kind of capacity to hate.
All I know is that at this moment it’s important you hear from me, a colleague and a kin who’ve chosen the same arena—education—to move the world forward, say that you matter, AAPI matter, and fighting anti-Asian hate matter.
And it has to matter, for everyone.
Thank you for all that you do, and I hope we can continue to take/ create space to process and learn together as a group.